I called the Provincial general hospital in Skövde today and ask if there is a nearly schedule for me…I am really worried as the cancer maybe spreading and getting bigger but as of now, they don’t have any date to give me yet so I asked about the result of the X-ray of my lungs. It seems they found out 2 abnormalities in my lungs too, I just don’t remember what it was but I hope I will get the result in black and white soon.

The MRI which I undergone last week showed that the cancer is now 5 cm big and it scattered around nearby tissues so I am really very worried sick and cry most of the time.

After a while, Salgrenska University Hospital, which is one of the biggest hospitals in Europe, called me and informed me some schedules:

On thursday July 2, I will be going to Gothenburg at Salgrenska for registration, it would take 4 hours to do the procedure, I don’t know why it would take so long but it will remain to be seen. We are leaving from home at 4:55 AM. My schedule time is 10:30 AM. The hospital is more than 200 km away from home.

On sunday, the 5th of July, we are going to spend the night in Gothenburg to have an early examination under general anesthesia on monday morning to determine which procedure to get rid of the cancer is the best for me. I am starting to get nervous but I have to stay positive  all the time…

Update June 29, 2015
I got the notification from Salgrenska University Hospital today and it seems the operation is already scheduled on the early morning of monday the 6th of July. So I guess this is it! Please help me GOD!

…. I chatted with my two grown up children today and told them my worries, crying while I was writing. I told them I remember their best friend’s mom who died of cervix cancer  some years ago, around year 2000 or something. They assured me not to worry, that was so long time ago. The medicare has improved since then. I told them if something happened to me they must know that they are the most important to me. I have struggled to hold together our family though at times I was near to give up but they were my strength, they kept me going and struggled even more to hold on.

If ever I would not survive this illness, I am anyway happy that it happened now that my kids are grown ups and could take care of themselves.

Published by queenkeandra

I am a swedish citizen with asian origin, lives in Sweden, entrepreneur, accountant, fashion designer, dressmaker, professional interpreter and translator and from year 2014, I also became a local politician with some assignments from the local government. I moved to Sweden after marriage with a Swedish national in 1986. Two years later we got a son followed by a daughter after 21 months. Satisfied with life in fact, I guess I got all I wished for, it feels I have everything. Being married is not just a bed of roses, the roses have thorns also and you can get it at times but we’ve always been doing pretty good. Kinder and better husband I do not think I can get, everyone has their flaws and life becomes easier if you can accept them. I’m not a perfect person either. I became a grandmother quite young, only 45 years old, was a little skeptical at first but then I loved to be one. Now I am already a grandmother of two, a boy and a girl of 20 months between them, such a great feeling, it feels like it was a replay of my life. When I have both of them at home, it feels like I was young again and is the mother of small children. I can not explain but so damn good it is. When I moved to Sweden I knew nothing about the country, but now it feels like I’ve always lived here. I speak Swedish better than my native language, better in Swedish grammar than my husband, it may sound strange but it’s true. I dream even in Swedish. I hang out with many Swedes, have worked and still working in Swedish companies. I go to the Swedish church though I am a Roman Catholic. We believe in the same God anyway. I’ve adapted pretty well in Swedish society. I think I have to adjust to that country I moved to, not the country or its citizens to adapt to me. Sweden has no responsibility whatsoever that I wanted to move here so I could not demand anything else, but now a citizen, I think I have the right as any other native Swedes. I pay taxes and do my duties as a citizen. I think I am a good role model and a loyal citizen and can fight for my new country.

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